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For a long time, I've believed that it was good to question your faith, because that's how you know you really believe it and you were just blindly swallowing whatever is fed to you. I suppose I still believe that to a degree. But I just read something about Eve that is making me rethink that... ...when Satan showed up in the garden, he started presenting Eve with ideas she'd never considered before. She didn't need to do all that. The relationships she had with God and Adam were perfect. She was Adam's counterpart and submissive to him. They were in perfect communion with God, their creator. Satan lied to her and told her that her life would be so much fuller if she had these things other things...he promised her happiness, made her believe he had her best interest at heart. I know I've believed that lie before. I repent of it.

Hannah felt sad because she hadn’t become pregnant. She felt inadequate as a wife and as a woman in general. She was mocked because of her barrenness but her husband loved her in spite of it. At the peak of her grief, she cried before God, telling him that if he would allow her to become pregnant, she would dedicate the life of the child to the ministry. So here’s barren Hannah, begging God to allow her to have a child. But why? I think that I would be sad to give away the child I’d begged for. If Hannah had been having children all along, she would have never offered to dedicate the life of her miracle baby to ministry. I think that’s why God allowed the barrenness. Is that why I’m alone right now? I certainly can relate with Hannah. Not because I don’t have children, but because I don’t have a partner. Everyone around me is marrying and building families. It makes me very sad that I’m still all alone. But is God creating a rock-bottom for me to hit, so I will de...