Wonder Wonder

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So I did it. The weight has been lifted. But now I'm ready to look for a therapist. I've painted my nails black in honor of the loss.

I bought bubbles today for the office. That was a good treat. I'm thinking of getting my nose pierced. Just for shock or whatever. I wonder if I'll do it.

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